MemorabLe

2010-01-18T05:04:00.002+08:00

alright.this should be a new begining.

i should start all over again

even i totally forget how to open a new post

and i dont even know how to link people :[

i use to start to write dairy sometimes after i stop blogging.

i dont want to leave the blog like this,at lease i should update you guys something.

everyone is sleeping now except me.i just dont know why i cant fall sleep at night nowadays.

I'd aggregate all of my past calamity and misadventure

saved it in my memory.

oh well,

Remembering the last time i had suck stricken and pained event were...

sometime in some month of 2009.

I hate 2010 by the way.

I'm ready for 2012.

There;s something to look forward to,at least.

wake up wishing,

i have a life.

I have a dreams.

I have ambition.

I have the capacity to love

and believe that i deserve it.

this is my first post in 2010.how come i make it in this so disappointed way.

all my friend asked me why all my post look sad and i'm still look gorgeous when i meet them up.

seriously i got no idea on it,it is just because i like to blog when i'm depress and emo.sigh,thats all for today.

2009-08-11T20:03:00.003+08:00

How do you describe missing someone really badly?

For me,It is an inexplicable mystery.

A puzzle with a misplaced piece.

A fish out of the water.

A drop of tear in the vast ocean.

A song without lyric

The desire for warmth in the depths of winter.

The needed air that you breathe.

And wanting that someone back is likewanting snow in summer, rain in the desert.

i never going to be whole again.

And than you think you're going to die,

but wake up the next day still alive.

That's when you know,one can't die of a broken heart.

Sigh.

This is incredibly difficult.

I wondered where you are,

and pictured you soaring in the sky.

And that's enough for me.

I miss you more than words could say.

I couldn't put it any better.

Could you?=(

2009-08-06T02:32:00.002+08:00

Not now dear(can i still calling you this?),
not now!

Wherever you are,
you need to tide me through this,i can't possibly do it alone.
You owe me this.
You said you will never hurt me.
You left me here.

Pls...

2009-07-20T01:20:00.001+08:00

I know...i am not a good blogger!

I am a real busy person you know?

I know...i din't keep my promise to keeping update,but i'm fine girls.

And my hostel line is really suck ok?

It doesnt mean that i neglect you all.

I still need your to support and caring.

I'm really very sorry.

I promise I'll change :)

I Love you all, sexiest .

2009-07-10T01:05:00.003+08:00

Tracy is a sissy and a pussy

Her mother give her money to go and study

But she take the money and go do something funny

She want to get honey but she got no money

I fell moody moody and moody

How to make her happy happy but not crazy

Sleepy sleepy and geting sleepy

Good nite world and sunway university...i miss you baby!

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Happy birthday to lovely sister Rovester...

Ps Tingyi :Tell him if you saw this :)

2009-07-03T16:55:00.002+08:00

SHALL WE?
keep the flame burning.

Its always better when we;re together
BUT

how come it is so hard???
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Packing stuff...chao...BYE!
i know someone cant wait to see me tomorrow!WAhaha...
because of present rite?

2009-07-03T02:00:00.002+08:00

Seriously,i hate my college life.
The "stress" felling...you know?
FULL STOP about college!!!!X

And all i want,itz to be happy with you .
I love you, and i happen to love you a lot.
But why wouldn't you come to my dream?

One More Things,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY LAU YILING(7)
dont ask for present please
since we sososo close edi...
please lah

30th june
HAPPY BIRTHDAY BIANG(miss period)!
Cant wait to smell you!haha...

2009-07-01T19:02:00.002+08:00

This week is a pretty short week isn't it?
At least for me.

My Peneng trip are not over yet
Our 3 days 2 nights escapade ended with a satisfied note.
Pardon me if i missed out anything,
I found i am quite good with directions, building names, street names.
I am nt an impaired ha ha.
we got to stay in azhar luxurious villa.

To sum it all up,
I had a diverting and enjoyable time with you guys.
I want to thank each of us, for making this trip possible.

I hope the photo will be upload soon..but......wait lah! :)
PS:Let's go again please la please!

2009-06-11T00:07:00.004+08:00

9 june 2009=It is memorable!
you know that i could use somebody

someone like me,somebody

2009-06-10T21:39:00.002+08:00

Say 'Bye" to this awesome guys!

*rmb the delete the porn web-site before you borrow your pc to others!

2009-06-07T19:39:00.000+08:00

Sometimes I feel so full of love
It just comes spilling out
It’s uncomfortable to see
I give it away so easily
But if I had someone I would do anything
I’d never, never, ever let you feel alone
I won’t I won’t leave you,on your own

But who am I to dream?

Dreams are for fools, they let you down

I don’t even know why I keep thinking of you.

Us? It’s not as if I’m starving for commitment.

But it’s like, when you uncover a diamond encrusted in mud, you know?

And you get the first glimpse of it and what it could potentially hold.

And it dangles just out of your reach. And god knows I’m not one to deprive myself.

Either way, to me it feels like I uncovered a gem and I want to keep it =P Weird analogy but meh. I’m not even certain how to put my feelings down on paper.

Still,culture and religion always play a role.

As we get closer and closer the problem we get to face even more at the same times.

hus wants to be ready for this relationship which no future.

Dont tell me you dont really care...!

Dont care means either you're trying to avoid or you not take ir serious...

sometimes i feel like,if we never express out our love,

maybe this woudn't be the way they are now.

Maybe you woudn't be constantly in my thoughts.

Maybe you'd just fade away they are now.

Once is enough to me,i dont want to be hurt anymore...

2009-06-06T12:06:00.004+08:00

I had a thought in my head for awhile now.
Reflecting upon how it seemed like how
i constantly feel that i am not good enough,
Not good enough for him, her and them.
Good but simply, not good enough.
I'm choosing not to harp on it.
Because my life is miserable enough.

I am not tired,
I am not tired.
Drill this in.
Give me the strength.
Make me a supermanwoman.
I shudder and cringe at the thought of study.
I wish i can have 24 hours of sleep in a air-con room with a comfortable bed with d one i love.
My wish.

good news,
I bought my new phone!
Bad news,
i need SAVING as what u told me!

ps:sorry 7,i will keep my promise ill post all d pic !
give me some time!

2009-05-11T00:50:00.015+08:00

this suppose to pose by last last week.

anyway...nitex yah everyone!

Lousy me =(

2009-04-25T00:03:00.003+08:00

ok,

i got to admit.I am such a failure =(

My life was in a mess now

I cant seems to find the right word at than pain of the time.

Feeling tired about everythings,but i cant rest anymore.

So what can i do now,is to make imrovement.

Ice-cream is the certain drug to make me fell better.

I am going to finish it!!!!i am falling for you.

robins!

2009-04-23T02:30:00.000+08:00

I felt like i have to keep on runing,

and if i falter,trip,fall and succumb,

even if it's only for a moment,

it catched up and saps away all my efforts.

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''Cause you were Romeo, I was a scarlet letter(bitch)

And u said stay away from me

And I was crying on the staircase

Begging you please don't go''

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now only i realize the word "empty".

i felt so empty.

my heart is empty. :(

happy birthday -->abang Dean

2009-04-19T18:24:00.011+08:00

Pilot bed

1st class seat

Beauty and the beast

2009-04-03T21:20:00.001+08:00

I've been meaning to write...

It has been an abso-blardy-lutely hectic week.

After nearly 4month of not studying...

it has been a hellura-hell week

i'm perpetually tired .

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And as of now

my eyesare batting to shut.

goodnight world.

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because sometimes,

all you really want is someone to be there,

to give you a great big hug and

even in for a while,

make you believe that eveythings

will be alright,that i'll be alright : )

My new schol life

2009-04-01T21:24:00.003+08:00

sorry again.

hostel staff not allow me to on9 because they need times to register for the internet-service.

now is fine.

college life was great.

But,

sometimes i found i very suck at socialising,so bad.

They must be thinking i'm mentally impaired.

Not mentally really,just i've lost the art of it.

I can't think well most of the times

I talk incoherently.I blabber nonsensically.

Not making any sense at all.

I wonder they will think like the same way as me or not.

Anyway,i still make alort alort alort of friends. :)

some of them are reali nice.

i feel nature,freely,happy when i talk to them oso.

i promise countless of my new friends to bring them visit to singapore nextime.

i can be a good tourist guide hahas.

Socialising takes effort.

Sometime,i do not have sufficient amount of energy.

Nor enough enthusiasm to bother.

Sometimes i grumble not going out making friends.

Sometimes i wish i don't have to wear a smile,

and make friend.

i am this contadicting.

Back to where i was,

the meeting with my girls was more than comforting.

For i do not have to put on my best behaviour,

I can laughing like a lunatic people sometimes,

I can sit back and keep quiet not worrying

They will not thinks i am bored or do not want to be there.

For,i am just tired and weary,

In fleeting moments of blahs and dysphoria.

ok,back to yesterday.

Went out with my ex-schoolmate A.k.a low poh

shie,bun bun,xuan

The night was conversation.

Delightful,uninhibited and lacking in pretence,

Gaiety in laughter of companionable banter.

Miss shie!i need the 4tho!!!

I do hope we can do this more often.

Together with my other lovelies when i miss so much.

your know who you are.

I don't know why.

But i feel like crying.

okay,this is not suppose to be the way,

because i've so much love and care.

so ooccupied and filled with entanglements.

But,amidst all these happening,i feel the loneliest.

And ofcos all my dear,

you know who are you.

I realli miss all of you so much.

7,biang,stupid...i'm here waiting for you to come.

ling,

they reject you is their 损失 luh.

i edi told you that you should use 两粒 not 实力 what!hahas

My hubby...i know you are mine,you were meant to be mine. :)

2009-03-16T16:53:00.002+08:00

hi guys...sorry for my late update cause my mum cut-off my internet.
thx peiyi for lend ur pc to me to update...jie love u so much yah.
well...alort of stuff to tell ...
anyway just make it short.
blue blue monday...i was at singapore.
tuesday...my shopping day!!!
wed...the most most most happy day !i pass my P.and my dear came back from ns.
thurs...results day,movie days!hahas.
fri...my shopping day with dear dear.
sat...shopping day with family.dinner with dear dear.
sun...dear fetch me shopping again.AND wad a pitiful sunday.lazy to expand to all of u lah.
hahas.
today...!i support in kl today...but...so...still at singapore nw.
anyway...
i just want to tell all of you.......i miss you alort okey?

7 hang me out on 21 of march.
i reali cant acompany them bcs i'll goin to kl 2mrw.
so,
at the moment...
my heart broken...........
i felt like bei pao qi...
reali reali hurt...
i've to return the pc...update soon.see yah!

2009-03-08T23:48:00.002+08:00

i like her new fringe!look Kawaii.

having steamboat with xuan again on friday!!!

i love her !!! :)

2009-03-08T03:19:00.003+08:00

while i waiting for the mrt that day...

i watched a loving couple from a distance,

how the girls melts into her lover's arm,

the smiles plastered on both their faces.

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I relive the time i dissolve into his arms,

The time where he'll drop a kiss on the crown of my head.

my breathing his smell.

i tell myself to be strong...

nw onwards, 3more days.he cuming soon to me!

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sorry for refuse to talk with you in phone,

i wana tell you how i miss you infront of you!!! :)

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Yah...fnish chit-chat with my lenglui biang...

We're just a clssmate last two year.

WE're just a good/best/love relationship now.

But,we're a bussiness partner in the future.opxx.it should be

a few month later!

And most Importany is...

We're both a millionaire in the future.

opx.wrong again!should be few nonth later!!!

i dun like to say the word FUTURE.

without NOW! how you get your Future?agree?

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good night the whole universe!muakxx

2009-03-08T02:56:00.002+08:00

babes and me :)

meet up the loves one veronica on monday(my shoping day)!...

i love you...muckx.dunt cry edi yah babes...

i came back soon.alrite?

gud nite!

2009-03-06T23:19:00.005+08:00

$188,$158dollars.

$720 dollars

EeE...i lost the bill :(

actualli this should be post on mondae.

my shopiing day!!!

realii bought alort of stuff...and also alort of pic(lazy to post...nextime okey?)
my tv show time...

Bye bye!

2009-03-05T03:15:00.002+08:00

its hard and hard to get sleep everynite.
i'm so hungry>3 nw...
Sumthings for me to eat?
chocolate?
some strawberies?
snack?
nope!
i perfer burger tonight.
i cant sleep/live without this kind of food nowadys...
only these can make me fell better!

bf willing to go jungle 2mrw.opx!this morning.
had he beauty sleep now.
so,maybe i going to singapore again... $.$

i'm so tired,mentally and emotionally!!!

2009-03-04T23:54:00.002+08:00

Going to update and update more post in this few days

because i am goin to KL soon.Mum goin to cut-off all the internet,phn,astro because there're nobody at jaybee if i leave.so,maybe will be tomorrow,the day after tomorrow,nextweek or wad else...

this is okey.

But they tell me they're going to sell my condo!

wtf! this is they buy for me since i move from kl.

i was alone everyday,they coming back maybe once or twice per week.

i can understand,my home not that important to them...

but i hope they can respect me.its many ganqing for me.

mum said they will buy me another 1 at singapore.

its a good country,good location isn't?

then,my dad ask me" will u cuming back to this kind of country if we send u to UK,a beter country. "then mun continue" atlease all of us were at singapore,we can clean up your hse."

this question confused me!

yes,they're rite!(s0 many reason to sh0w they're rite...)

Noway,they are selfish!(i gt n0 reas0n)

迷失了什么？

2009-03-04T14:33:00.009+08:00

I feel hungry,

I cannot stop puuttinf food into my mouth.

Is this some sickness?

I want it cured,

my tummy's stretching to it's maximum.

i dunno what i want.

i feel like strangling myself.

我的生活不完美.

2009-03-01T03:14:00.004+08:00

Darling boyfriends,

this is for you.

i carry ur heart with me,

i carry it in my heart.

i'm never without it,

Anywhere i go u go,my dear.

And whatever is only done by only me is your doing.

i fear no fate for you are my fate,my sweet

I want no world,

For beautiful you are my world,my true.

And it's you're whatever a moon has owiz meant.

And whatever sun will sing is you.

Here is a deepest secret no body knows

Here is the root of the root,

the bud of the bud,

the sky of the sky,

of a tree i call as life;

which grows higher of the sky.

And this is the wonder that keeping the star apart.

i carry ur heart,i carry it in my heart.

(tracy lim jia qian copyright)

Love.

the irresistible desire to be irresistibly desired.

maybe this is too hard for you to understand or too random.

but i make it the whole night.

you know how poor is my language.(because of you,i try)

i love my bofriend so much. :)

for you bufday girl

2009-02-26T22:50:00.025+08:00

our memory

your boy

i'm waiting ur kiss

feel oneself inferior :( mines damn small haha.

i love you the way you are.

so sweet

it's honey.

we are so in love!

A birthday can be seen as a serious or joyful time depending on one's age

and one's attitude toward life.

Another years has passed and we looked back on failure and successes.\

HAPPY BIRTHDAY xaun

thanks for celebrate your special day with me!

we thinks about our goal for future or reflect on the past year.

alort of things happen today.

-Lunchcheon

-big-head-sticker

-movie:love matters(v quarell with the staff because of rm4)

-mph(thanks for the memories and where rainbow end by cecelia Ahern,Torey hayden)

-dinner.

alort for alort...

and finnaly,

my head just like a fragile now

i'm sick...and totally exhause.

Anyway,

Hope your birthday is a perfect start

to whole year of happy day : )

family day.

2009-02-22T23:07:00.015+08:00

my mum lky to occupy the camera.hahas

今天，特别一点。。。来一个华语的post?how?
在一个风和日丽的大热天。
去mesuem layang x2 @kite-festival to kite-flying.
一路上，鸟语花香。。。椰树婆娑起舞。。。(primary essay always start like that derr)

Fendi sunglss

sun tan-ing

his pattern always more than badminton:)

that why i love him so much.

sunburn !

going to do mask right now.

Later LOVE!

2009-02-21T03:01:00.004+08:00

just for You.

Baby,look at how happy we were,

the photo say in all...

We share so much memories

we were so in love.

why did you have to leave?

why did you have to leave me behind?

you still remember that we've plan,so many of them...

we're going to get college together,

we're going to study at UK next year,

goin to Japan again.

we're going to spend our life together...

Untill line tatoo our forehead,till we're old and frail.

Untill we hold our hand and bid the world goodbye without regret and ith smile together.

That was our plan...y din't you stick to it?

How i going to have them all fullfilled when you're not here with me?

baby,i need you.

i need your shoulder.

quickly come back.

i'm here.

always here for you!!!

prince must be sleep tight now.

Eeee(sound of mosqiuto)...Bite you!!!

It remind you to dreams about your princess!yummy?

gud nite world.

gud nite lover.

gud nite friend.

gud nite Hermes and Swaroski.

gud nite jia qian.

Give Me Back my Money!

2009-02-20T22:24:00.002+08:00

Did you guys read wed newspaper?(i mean singapore 1)

4D TOP PRICE:8380

Yes,our family company spotted some numbers

all of us(include me)decided to buy 4D,

in hope that we'll HUAT!

sad to say.JUMP NUMBER ARH!!!

and it's top price sial!

Boo Boo Shit!

My $600 Dollars is gone!

walao!$600 dollars leh...convert to Ringgit around $1400++ u know???

I suppose used this to buy one more pair salvatore ferragamo shoes der!!!

Singapore pools pls give me back my money:$

Bye.T.Z.nee

2009-02-18T17:37:00.010+08:00

for:nee

You're a special person.

still rmb that time we quarell in the school canteen?

we cried together and hug each other after this.

A beter friendship start from here.

You destined to go far.

I hope your new classmate& neighbour

know how lucky they are.

You have to rearange your life

They think

They breathe

Tall or short

Diff voice

Diff opinion.

pls be brave to face all of it.

May the sun shine there warm upon your face.

we will miss you very much.(Esp Ling)

she cried for you the whole nite.

dont 4gt what you promise me.

you promise bring your taiwan bf here.(然后被我抢走)

And all of you promise me bought a LV purse again when i lost my LV purse rite? :)

(and for those who promise me before dont 4gt wei)

And you promise my stupid brother to take big-head-pic with him.rmb?

so,dont break your promise.

we are here.

waiting for you come back to us.

say bye...t.z.Nee.

2009-02-17T22:09:00.000+08:00

Because,i'm Unreplace-able :]

2009-02-16T18:06:00.011+08:00

mum said i look like singer Rachel liang wen yin.

what's ur opinion?you think so?agree?

nop!!!i dont think so...she is much brilliant pretier x3 than me:)

I was in a state of great suffering today.

Both mentally and physically.

It's a misery to have to pull yourself up from bed.

Especially the weather nowadays' darn good to sleep

comfortablely and cozily where you can

snuggle and curl up the warmth of the blanket.

i felt headache/dizzy when woke up early morning.(2pm) :)

i dunno what's the problem with me?u know?

so...

bf said______ oh...rest more and drink more water.bt beter tell mummy dun faint down.

dear friend siad______u see alort of star above yur head?if not den tht mean nort dizzy...haha!

mum said______oh!ANEMIA lah!nth 1 lah...da jing xiao guai!!!

my stupid brother said______jie~喝多多的血就没事了lo！ (i m nt vampire leh mr dearest didi)

now i know how the words-

同人不同命delivered from. (==') cos diff ppl diff opinion,fortune sure diff oso lah.

so,what's ur opinion? :)

i'm on-diet-ing!!!

2009-02-13T17:58:00.006+08:00

yap...i just came bck from KL

sry for no update any 4tho cs my stupid brain 4gt remind me to bring my camera=='.

damn s*ck right?

yah tis is wad i serve for this few day!!![我要苗条的身材回来]

oh yeah.i still cant make decision of going to melvin birthdae party ant.

cs i noe the food there will Kill my mind.Arghhh...i became a fei mei soon as wad jia hao and earn call me:(

2009-02-10T03:09:00.005+08:00

i wake up today morning felling abit fragile.

you wouldn't call it a full-blown waking-up-irritation.

but u wouldn't call it bounding out of a bed to greet the day

either.

today is a scew-everybody day.

i am to work during and after work with a headache,

alongside the empty,angry belly.

Tripled with unbearabled mense-cramp.

I so want to rib apart anyones who show me faces!

it's not fu*king going to shorten the wait

even if you tell me you are abt to die!

Coin day is such a BAAH!

all you filty animals,if you cant wait,

Don't!you are not held at gun-point.

Scramm far far away!!!

i'm such a awful labour-pain and vile mood

to plaster smile own my pale face.

work draining me.

work OWN me.

Its going to be working so hard i'm gonna throw up.

Not of all bad,

i just finish chit-chat with my lover.

you realli bright up my day...

thx for giving me so much.

thx for fogiveness

thx for ur love

and last,sry for my stupid attitude. :(

2009-02-04T22:04:00.003+08:00

erm...just want to show off my tiffany&co pendants and bracalet from my aunty...muaks...love you so mucc...the love-lock charm is my favorites.i not sure the exactly price.cos aunty bought it from takashimaya and i also noneed to care about the price cos not using my money$$ wad.so, wad i suppose to do is just try and try .hahas.yah seriously i edi aim it since last year kl trip with my dardar.the price we saw at pavillion is around rm690.its worth than bought it from singapore cos as i know the market price is around SGD360++.its rugi rite?bt nvm lah the gov tax is7% wad.i would rather spend my money for singapore better then spend those money for our babi gov !!!

bf for away i port dickson.talking about you making me want to cryyy...i've been a cy baby,running tap.I can't stop the tears from flowing.They just happend the instance i think of him.

How do i survice for the next two month?

2009-02-03T21:44:00.000+08:00

A month.

you were away for a month now...

For the past month,

i occupied my time,

to the point of tiring to stay sane.

I pretend that nothing wrong,

i talk,i laugh like i used to.

I'm a great pretender.

deep down, i'm broken.

every one's telling me time will take away the pain.

not true.

It's getting harder and harder each passing day.

i m suffocating.

it's not suppose to be this way isn't it?

how can i just watch you walk away from me,

when all i can do is watch u leave.

I see you everywhere,one moment u're there,

and the next u're not.

i looked far away,at the spot where i'll always see you.

i tot i saw you,the you faded away.

You were there,but now u're not.

How can you just disapear from a place u belong.

when you coming back to me?

ns alot of lenglui...

dont forget,

a girl still waiting... :[ love 72

Thats ME :]

2009-02-03T00:46:00.000+08:00

Alrite...as u stumble across this humble little world wide web,you will realise that

-i'm just a simple girl next door who doesn't need an extravagant seeting.

- A great and smile is enough tomale my day.

-I am amused by things that are seemingly insignificant.

-I try to convince myself that enjoy mugging.

-Love branded just like how a fat boy loves his cake.

most inportantly,my life is filled with very happy people.They coloured my world with pink blue yellow red...